“Blank Page”

as i open my eyes on a new day i turn the page in the book of my life and prepare to write the next chapter, wondering will it be comedy or tragedy or some other kind of thing yet to be decided, the blank page staring back at me just waiting for me to … Continue reading “Blank Page” →

“Trench Warfare”

in the trenches, i'm slogging forward night and day, fighting for every square inch of ground to stand on, and it's a violent struggle just to occupy the space i'm in as i breathe in and breathe out the sickly stench of death on a daily basis, clawing my way towards sanity in the no … Continue reading “Trench Warfare” →

“Reflection”

there's something to be said for spending a day alone every now and then, gathering one's thoughts and getting one's bearings in this crazy world full of go go go people all coming and going, not knowing if they're coming or going, so i take the day to reflect and look inside and figure things … Continue reading “Reflection” →

“Doing My Thing”

as the smell of German chocolate cake baking in the oven wafts through the house i sit in my room, just doing my thing, and i think to myself how glad i am to not be going to the Christmas gathering this year, all that anxiety i won't be dealing with, i just hope they … Continue reading “Doing My Thing” →

“Beast”

if i were upset about my situation that would be something, but this comes from a different place altogether, a deeper sadness that stirs in the depths of my soul, untouched and unfazed by the best of intentions and the kindest of actions, this beast that rides me day and night, a tormented mind that … Continue reading “Beast” →

“Anhedonia”

this terrible boredom that eats at me, eroding my soul, not for a lack of things to do but rather a lack of enjoyment in the things i try to do, nothing seems to do it for me yet i press on in the hope that somehow something will click and this will all be … Continue reading “Anhedonia” →

“Solitary”

consigning myself to this solo journey of introspection and doing things for myself i reflect and listen to the thoughts rambling around in my head, the good, the bad and the ugly, learning what i can as i go, the give and take of life as i stare at these four walls and enjoy my … Continue reading “Solitary” →